Mantis Returns

It was a while back I had a very real experience where I came out of a hypnotic state while sitting in the auditorium theater long enough to be aware I sat in chairs with a 100 other people also in a hypnotic state. 

The moment was fleeting but I saw a tall Mantis being off to the side looking directly at me and it said, “I know you can see me.” That was the last thing I remembered. That is until the morning while in meditation before yoga. I asked, “will I have any more communication with you? I haven’t heard anything in a long while?” I meant this as a question to the spirits, not the grays or anything particular. What happened next was striking.

I saw in my mind the Mantis again and he was looking right at me. I didn’t feel any fear at all and he was direct. “Yes.”

In a deep state of calm and quiet it happened. I was back there in the threat re setting. This time I could see more and everyone was looking at center stage. There was a tall being standing there addressing us. I couldn’t make out what the being was saying but it was wearing a long gown that was light colored flowing. The head was not human shaped and I couldn’t make it out clearly. Then I looked to my right past the people sitting next to me and that’s when I saw the Mantis.

This time he just looked at me as if he was reaching deep inside me. I found myself sitting in my first grade classroom in San Francisco in the late 50’s. It was as if I was there. Back in time. It was very emotional. I heard him say, “Remember how you felt then?” I felt detached from who we once were. No memory but a feeling because the memory was repressed and part of my emotional memory. I was having a raw experience but down deep inside I knew I didn’t belong and it was terrifying. I felt like I had been turned into an animal. My emotions were ragging and tears poured down my face as I experienced this in meditation.

It then said, “Now you know. Now we know. Now you remember.” And that was it. I came out of meditation and wiped my tears.

Was it real? It sure felt like it and I do remember and have never forgotten that day in school and that feeling that something was wrong and I didn’t belong here. I have carried this all my life. But being there as if I was back in time was different than just remembering something. And I felt something that just tells me there will be more to come and that we are moving closer to finding out the true purpose of this experience.